...to you guys. i apologize. i put on a show. sometimes i am so positive in my responses and other times i am in the toilet, which is where i am right now. i put on a show last night at the visitation, same with going to church this morning and the grocery afterwards. that is why people think i am fake and whiny. i hate the mornings, maybe it is because i know i will be alone all day. the afternoons are better because i know kidlet and dh will be home soon. everytime i leave the house the show begins. when i am alone i feel like dying, by my own hands. it will be showtime tonight because we are meeting dh's father and sister for dinner. i hate hate hate this and just want to be done with it all.
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