I have been off work on FMLA for the past 28 days. Part was inpatient in a hospital, and the rest has been partial hosp and outpatient treatment. I am supose to go back to work in 2 weeks. People from work are calling and asking me how I am doing. I have not been returning phone calls or anything. Eventually I will have to talk to them and deal with them. I dont know what to say to them. Having BP has such a neg stigma that I am afraid. I dont know how to explain my moods. I am in a management position so it is even more delicate. My boss sorta knows and he said to me when I explained that I was going to take some time off "I have a friend who has been on and off meds for depression. They only work for so long. Take care of yourself and you will be ok" I know he was trying to be kind, but how to I explain that I will never be off meds and that it is not depression, but a different mental illness. I know I am rambling but this has been on my mind alot. I just dont know what to say to people.
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