I have the best pdoc anyone could ask for. I mean, he calls back ALWAYS the same day, will come in on his days off if you have a problem that can't wait etc etc. But I still can't open up enough to him for him to really know what's in my head and what's going on which is probably why it's been a little teeny tiny (okay alot) hard to get me "better". I know what things he needs to know but when I get there I clam up and say only the bare minimum. My fear is losing control in front of him which I know is ridiculous. I'm hitting desparation point though where I know he needs to know more than I am telling him so that he can help me. I suffer from depression, BP, and PTSD. It's not him, I'm like this with everyone and another doc I would be the same way. How do I open up? Am I the only one with this problem? This is getting serious now, I've been on the verge of suicide for a few days, I can't leave the house.....I have an appt in two days and if I don't open up I'm afraid what might happen....any advice?
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