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Anyone familiar with death of a loved one?
Brian was the love of my life, he was a dear friend. He died on August 10,2007.He was 29. We had an amazing connection, and still I feel that I wish there had been more. More e-mails, more conversation, more time.We connected with our bipolar,and our hurts. He was the person I always went to. I miss him so much.
I've been sleeping more lately and eating more. I stay on my meds and I keep going. I wish more for death, but not in a suicidal way. In a way that I just want to see him again, I just want peace. I want to tell him all the things I never got the chance to tell him. Will the hurt ever stop? Will I stop being in love with someone who's dead?
Brian was the love of my life, he was a dear friend. He died on August 10,2007.He was 29. We had an amazing connection, and still I feel that I wish there had been more. More e-mails, more conversation, more time.We connected with our bipolar,and our hurts. He was the person I always went to. I miss him so much.
I've been sleeping more lately and eating more. I stay on my meds and I keep going. I wish more for death, but not in a suicidal way. In a way that I just want to see him again, I just want peace. I want to tell him all the things I never got the chance to tell him. Will the hurt ever stop? Will I stop being in love with someone who's dead?
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i have never lost a Loved one to death, but i have lost someone that i Loved with every thing in me. you know, the type of Love that stories and songs are made of. after i lost him i decided that i believe in reincarnation. because i do believe that we are meant to be. and maybe we messed things up in this life time, but maybe next time we'll get it right.
i don't know what your religious beliefs are, but if you do believe in reincarnation, just think about how great the reunion will in your next life time. and if you don't, you'll see him in heaven.
I am so very sorry for your loss!!!
That was such a short time ago. It would be surprising if you 'were' anywhere near being through with feelings of intense sadness and loss about this.
I don't wholeheartedly believe in 'time heals all wounds' but life does move on and slowly, over time, the feelings will change into something much more managable.
Maybe it would help if you wrote a letter to him, telling him how much he meant -- and still means -- to you, how terrible you feel without him and how much you regret not having told him certain things and how much you wish he was still here and that you had spent more time together. And then go read it to him at his grave. Or just read it aloud to his 'spirit', right where you are.
I don't think the hurt and sadness will ever go away, but I do think it will lessen and change in nature; that the time will eventually come when you can think back on the good times and feel enjoyment in doing so.
A good way of motivating yourself to begin recovering is to keep reminding yourself of how he would want you to feel and try to embody that.
Honor his memory by how you conduct yourself in life. If you can learn to be as healthy and as happy as possible, that makes his life to have had that much more value. Let him live on, in you.
Once again, I'm so sorry. You are in one of life's hardest places right now. I wish you well.
I'm sure you will always miss him as he was so dear to you, but I think it will get easier to handle with time. You know the saying, "Time heals all wounds." I'm not sure if it completely heals them, but it certainly does make them less painful. Hang in there, love. If you need to talk, I'm here for you.
(((hugs)))