Had to talk a friend through being suicidial last night. He's married with kids and he told me that he's gay, and he always has been. Ive known hes been struggling for a while but I could never get him to open up to me. Im honored he felt comfortable enough to talk to me, but he's so depressed--understandably so. He kept assuring me he was safe and had no plans to harm himself but he was saying things like "whats the point of living, im so tired of living a lie, how do I go on when no one will accept me for who I am." We couldn't talk--his family was sleeping--but I texted him for over 2 hrs. He finally seemed to get to a point of realitive calmness, but im still despertly worried about him. I suggested counseling, but I dont think he'll go. He's religious and has had bad experiences with Christian counselors and I think thats all he would be willing to go to.
I tried to share a bit of my story with suicidial ideation, but nothing I went through is similar-other than wanting to and attempting to kill myself in the past.
At the end of the conversation he asked me to not bring it up again--his being gay. He said it was a moment of weakness and he "shoved everything back in the box, and he's ready to put on a happy face like always".
I respect him and his wishes, and I won't bring it up unless he wants to talk about it again. But...I'm so worried about him. I'm not in the same state so I can't just drive down there and offer support like I normally would. I just feel so helpless. How do I help him? All I can do is talk and listen. I told him over and over that I accept him and care for him and that he's important and he matters. But I'm still not sure it will be enough.
I just feel so helpless and guilty that I can't be there...how do I help him? How do I help him is he can't/won't get help for himself? God, I can't even imagine what he's going through...I just want him to be safe, to be ok. To not hurt himself...
HiI jsut wanted to say HAPPY SUNDAY and I hope everyone is doing well. Thinking about you. Whatever is going on. Wherever you are.Happy or sad Please remember thatYou aren't aloneWe are here Fighting back!!!Living!!!Propeling onward with youYes, you!!!
I know I may be over the top with these check-ins.... I like to hear how others are doing so we can check in with one another.how is everyone doing?I started a new med today and I am soooo sensitive. Instantly feel effects. So though I want to go out I have been staying in doing laundry and cooking. The sun is shining but air is crisp. think I'll watch some movies and stay under a...