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Suicide THoughts

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Earlier today I was crying on my couch alone as I always am. And I seriously thought of hanging myself. My life is so empty and I keep saying over and over "What am I here for!!!!!" . I get pissed when I wake up each morning. No one checks on me or calls but its not their responsibility they are only family. I've fell out with any friendships I had recently so its just me alone besides going to work. Alone most weekends and no one to call or laugh with is not enough to go through life with. Just silence beside the TV noise everyday.

What am I here for!!! So others wont feel guilty if I do kill myself one day? People who I rarely see or hear from is what I am hanging on for?

Not asking for advice just wanted to share
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh seek i feel for you and suffer with you! the holidays always are rough believe me i know. we all go through these rough patches and your at the rite place. hang in there and if you need to talk just leave me a message. i wish i could give you a big (((((HUG)))). you are NOT alone! just hold on okay? just keep posting so we know your alright. just keep posting! we are here!
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We're all here for a reason - it just may not be readily apparent to you at the moment. If you were to die today you might miss the chance to give someone the encouragement to help them stay alive tomorrow.
deleted_user
deleted_user
i know this sounds daft but i believe everything happens for a reason we are bp for a reason it's a test to see how strong we are and my god we are the strongest people out there.. hang in there..you are not alone
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh sweetie I wish I was there to call you and check on you. Do not let the disease win - tell the bastard to leave you alone. You can do this we will all help you. Keep posting and if you need someone to call you let me know I will be there ASAP. I love you!
deleted_user
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i know that feeling all too well. its so easy to get stuck in that rutt. thinking of you, and hoping things get better for you. hang in there. hugs.
deleted_user
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Seeking,
I am so sorry to hear you are going through this! Depression is a relentless bastard who doesn't play fair at all. I am right in the midst of it too & I understand those feeling of hopelessness & despair. We are really both going through a similar time right now & I am here for you if you would like to talk! PLEASE don't hesitate to message me, okay?!?!
~HUGS~
beckyp
beckyp
Sometimes we are fulfilling a purpose and don't even realize it. I moved in with my sister and her partner about 4 monts ago. My sister in law said that she loves having me here and doesn't know what she would do if I left. I don't know what i do that makes her feel this way. I just act myself.
dobiedots
dobiedots
I hear ya Seeking Peace.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Thanks everyone, it was a horrible time this weekend.
deleted_user
deleted_user
we are all here for a reson but don't ask me what reaon because I don't know.
I am here for support and chattin to. I feel for all the people on here as they have helped me in my hours of need.
You take care, I am sure someone somewhere care about you If anythng happened to you people would be crying for their loss.
You take care
Loving hugs
Bett
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I tried to commit suicide last August and believe me it was horrible. I tried to hang myself. I was in a jail re-entry program after getting arrested for fighting with my father. He took money from me, and then elbowed me in the face when we were arguing in the car. I attacked him. I was hospitalized and I almost died. The judge dropped the charges... I have been doing well for several months now. I have been on medication and been seeing a social worker. I was really bad before I was arrested though... I had a tough time coping and I was off my medication.

Don't do it. There's got to be a way to avoid this pain.
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