pray that the feelings will go away... i want to live for my kids, but not myself... i don't know what i would do without my kids... they are the only reason i get out of bed and on my way every day... i know that they need me and love me... just wish i would love myself...

God doesnt want to take you yet silly.

thats me. I cant hurt me but I know how not to cut to deep ( when i use to) really when I get suicdal all i really need is someone around me to give me a hug and tell me. its only a monment it will pass

I think by nature of us all reading this...we are all "can't do it" people...

...at least for now

I decided to do it one time when my wife wanted a divorce and was sleeping with another man and she was taking my kids 6 hours away to live. I decided when and how. When I got to it all I could think about was my kids... As miserable as I was I decided that I would rather be miserable my whole life than do that to my boys... can never do it now.. I just wish for a bus to do it for me :)

i met a girl in the hospital who hung herself... her eyes were all red because they were bulged out... she was literally close to death and almost there but her husband came just in time... i believe that God saved her and it wasnt her time...

Good question. I believe most of us do not want to die but just don't want to stay in the pain and don't know how to make it stop. A cry for help. Sometimes ppl don't listen until we go that far. It is sad.

I agree totally with lindel i think we are stuck between a rock and a hard place life can be so unbearable but in the end suicide is final a long term solution to a short term problem i personally don't want to die but there have been times when i have but every time the thought of my daughter stops me.

Of course, all of us would much rather live happily without this illness, not die. But we do have this illness, and when it's hellishly painful, our vision becomes clouded and our thoughts become dark. Even the strongest of people, when their illness becomes too much, cannot think clearly and decide they don't want to live. Even though our vision clears and those thoughts pass, we just can't see it happening at the time.

Thank God, he often saves us from ourselves.

I never knew then what I know now.
I will never kill myself.

I end up in a panic attack and usually go for a 'walk' where I end up in dangerous places, like sitting in the middle of the intersection.

when i want to die and can't do it. it makes me feel worse. i'm even more of a failure but i'm always glad that i am when i come back from that place. i don't want to die that way or any other way for that matter.

I think it is God's grace...and even so, if you get emotionally detatched enough, you still CAN do it...I almost did once. And all it took was enough pressure from someone else being a thoughtless jerk, for me to snap...so that is true to an extent, but don't count on it...none of us are ever in complete control.

I have learned after many down periods and breakdowns (I am bipolar I) that I always come out further ahead after my breakdowns then before them. I now have faith in that and keep plugging along. When God closes a door, he opens a window.