I'm so sorry about your wife, we will be here for you anyway we can. We will try to help you keep it together. Love to you

thanks foreal

I can only imagine what you've been through. People here have been through enough to be able to help you and understand your pain. Hug to you.

Welcome! I am deeply sorry for yours and your daughters loss. We have a great community here so feel free to ask any questions. Oh and we also like to have a little fun as well.

I am so sorry about your wife, you have come to the right place for support. I too keep very much to myself which is another good thing about this site and the people here, its ok to talk and think out loud, and there is always endless support with no threat of crossing boundaries of my own space. Feel free to get whatever it is off your chest, it is better not trapped inside and someone will always be listening and most likely understanding on some level. Welcome.

ROPES: Well, I have to tell you, you have picked probabley the best site out there to get understanding from..The folks here are incredible, and you dont have to feel ashamed here or anything like that..You WILL get all the comfort here that you could possibly have..And tons of support..

I was a private person too. untill I had to deal with this illness.so dump all ya want.

I am very sorry for your loss, and Im sure not knowing much about takeing care of a little one doesnt help much either..Its usually the Mom that does most of that...I hope you can open up here, and let us walk thru this with you, you wont regret it...

Welcome....Patti (TucsonAZ)

I think fun is something I could use. I wish there was something that sounds like fun. I hate bipolar. So far it seems like everyone is very pro meds here. I don't know what to think anymore. When I was taking meds it blunted my pain but it also made me feel like I had no feelings at all. I had gotten off my meds before Bree died and was put right back on them after she died. I have been off my meds since Feb and its like I am just now starting to try to deal with this.
im ramblin ramblin ramblin ahhhhhhhhhhh

wow, thanks everyone. You don't know how nice it is to find people who care. I had started thinking that all people suck. I say again I hate this disease and all the crap your brain tells ya. I sure am glad to have found this site. I have been searching for. . . well, not sure how many days now. im ramblin again.
anyway, thanks again all. I feel a little stronger, like I can go on a little longer. whew

people DO suck!!! ramble on my friend, we're listening!!!!

Joe, I'm sorry for your loss of your wife. I don't know why she decided to take her life on her daughter's birthday. She has put a knife wound in your heart and sould by doing that on that DAY. NOW, Think of what your child is going through. There is a strong chance she may NEED you to help her reach her develemental mile stones. It's very hard for a bipolar person to think beyond the thoughts that take over our minds, but YOU have to find the external and internal strength to be there for you child. An orphan NEVER develops healthy if both parents end their lives.
What message does that say to a 5 year old mind? "They killed themselves because of me. I'm bad".
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so sorry big hugs !!!!! what else is there to say that hasn't already been said, but this. there are a lot of us here that don't sleep your going to fit right in. were all pretty much a mess at least some of the time, and some of us most of the time.

((((( Ropes )))))

welcome aboard. I am GLAD that you are here with us!

I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. Truly I am.

Here you will find support... vent sessions... and some laughter and pretty awesome poetry!

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please... feel at home here.

I am one who does not go for the drugs. I have tried many but the side effects were intolerable. There have been many posts discussing nutritional alternatives. Check some out and ask questions if you have any. But I will make a suggestion for a drug to try. If you don't get regular sleep you will quickly make your condition worse -- believe me Ive been there. A good med to help you get to sleep is klonopin. Not too many side effects as long as you use it in moderation. Sleep is soooo important to your well being. I feel bad that another person made a negative post regarding your wife's end. To me, she lost the battle to this disease. Its no different than someone succumbing to cancer. If she were well she would still be alive -- it's that simple.

I dont want to imagin what you are fealing right now... Im sorry to hear about your loss, and I wish right now that I had the magic words for you, but i must save them for myself right now, due to my own delema.. besides that i cant think straight... maby someday the words will come to me as they usualy do...

Welcome Joe, I too am sorry for your loss, as you know there is no medication that can take away that kind of pain.
Your beautiful little girl needs her daddy more then ever, so she can grow up knowing it was not her fault that mommy took her life, and she is loved so very much. this group is wonderful and very supportive. Best part of it you can vent out your emotions without anyone in your home town knowing your personal business. So our new friend you still have your privacy. Smile!!!