Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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deleted_user 12/04/2007

First of all please let me state that at the present moment I am not suicidal. I just want to ask how many of you (if any) Feel suicidal after arguments with significant others? My life is so very stressful right now more than its ever been and he is almost intentionally adding to it. Even when he is fully aware of my DX.I want to tell my pdoc but, I am afraid of being admitted and having that on my record. I think about death every day several times aday but i am afraid to do any thing about it. I have a large life ins policy that only pays for a suicide after three years. that's jan of 08. That's still not a plan but a reason not to tell the doc. there can be no records of any preexisting plans or conditions. now I'm rambling (I apologize) back to the question do arguments overwhelm you to the point of suicidal thoughts?

deleted_user 12/04/2007

Any kind of stress for me if it festers long enough will make me suicidal. Normally it only takes a couple hours. But my answer nonetheless is yes, definetly.

Marilyanna 12/04/2007

Lots o stuff take me to suicdal stuff. that doesnt me i actually do it. My therapist says there are people who c ant kill them selves and i might be one of them you might be too.

Getting stress off is a biggy, Hot shawers are another. Lots to do with out time limits are helpful, I dont fully understand your predictment but thats hat i have to say/

deleted_user 12/04/2007

I feel suicidal all the time. It's a thought that lingers in my brain and gets stronger if I'm stressed or feeling down. Sometimes I lie in bed and fantasize about it, planning how I could avoid my children finding me or how to make it easier for my family. It's a kind of safety valve in my life that I know I can use if it gets to the point where I can't cope or things are too painful. I don't want to die or leave my family but I know I can reach the point where life is too hard.

deleted_user 12/04/2007

Stress and pain is a biggie for me.

deleted_user 12/04/2007

If I'm in a depressive phase I think about suicide quite a lot but thinking about it an actually doing it are two different things. My pdoc doesn't seem to worry too much if he asks me point blank "Do you want to live?" and I answer yes. I may feel hopeless and like life has no meaning and entertain the notion of suicide but I truly wasn't ready to actually die.

beckyp 12/04/2007

Yes, if I'm having suicidal ideations and have an arguement with husband, I can get suicidal.It all feels so hopeless at times. right now, though,,I'm separated so i'm not having that problem.

deleted_user 12/04/2007

I think about suicide all the time. How to do it and make it look like an accident so my kids don't hate me, or doing it so my kid doesn't find the body, etc. It's my life that makes me suicidal, not outside sources.

deleted_user 12/04/2007

Arguments always make me cut ..not deep just so I can see it. When my security blanket is pulled away ..i obsess about takeing a bottle of Ativan. But just with hubby does this happen ..temporary insanity. We steer very clear of arguments ..i always get hurt

deleted_user 12/04/2007

Yes this happens to me.I just flip out when we really get into it and I don't think he is listening to me.I either get suicidal or hurt myself .:( I would like to be able to work thru my feelings but haven't gotten there yet.

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