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Not only have a lot of people written about suicide on DS I too have had many experiences wanting to commit the act.Last March,before my dx I took something like 40 some odd pills to complete the task.Although I was almost incoherent,slipping in and out of conciousness my husband did not call the ER or an an ambulance.He shut the bedroom door and hoped for the best.He later said he made a mistake.
Last week I decided to express and open up to him telling him how often Ive been siucdal since a teen and the various forms of self harm/self destructive behavior that has taken place.His reaction was not good.I guess in his way he was trying to help but he clearly told me If I try it again he will never forgive me.
Since being on lithium things have gotten much better however I still get depressed and still fantisize about self harm and suicide.
Is this just a demon in BPD we have to struggle with forever?
Last week I decided to express and open up to him telling him how often Ive been siucdal since a teen and the various forms of self harm/self destructive behavior that has taken place.His reaction was not good.I guess in his way he was trying to help but he clearly told me If I try it again he will never forgive me.
Since being on lithium things have gotten much better however I still get depressed and still fantisize about self harm and suicide.
Is this just a demon in BPD we have to struggle with forever?
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Mine have gone over the last few years.Lithium.Plus life has taken over and revealed more.
But ,a very stable,highly funtioning Bper told me once,every once in a while (outta the blue),she'll have an episode of SI.
Once our meds get worked out ,and things are going pretty well...I still think(SI) it's like a wild animal,we should never think it's gone back into the woods..it may be lurking,and waiting for a vunerable moment...that's just how I see it.
i have to add that your husband sounds kind of ... off. he just shut the door and hoped for the best?
and he won't forgive you if you try it again ... that's thin ice. but maybe i'm just thinking too much of my own marriage. i was in SO MUCH TROUBLE for attempting suicide.
i don't think that's necessarily helpful.
i have to fight suicidal ideation... used to fight it daily... now i fight it once or twice weekly. i hope pluck's right. it'll go.
my doctor said "once you are up to 300 mg of lamictal the suicidal ideation will disappear."
does anybody else find that incredibly hard to believe?
i'm chipping that into the stone tablet right now.
If you can reach out to someone, just to talk, sometimes this can help. And I don't mean getting on here & upsetting everyone like a few have done (not you), but I have been able to ask advice here & just say "Hey, I am feeling really desperate here, can anyone offer some advice?" People have been so great & supportive. The last place you want to be (emotionally speaking) when you have these feelings is alone.