You're young and have reason to live. You have to believe that... though it may not seem that way now. I've been where you are....

I'm sorry you're feeling so down tonight. Did something happen to cause this?

Hey, I know exactly how you feel right now. You really should go to the hospital. If you want you can send me a message about what's going on in your life.

Joshua just know that this feeling will pass and you will feel better.
It looks like you are offline so I hope you found some help. If not there is lots of help on the Crisis Line link at the bottom of each page. I found it very helpful a few days ago.

http://dailystrength.org/content/view/34147

http://suicidehotlines.com/washington.html

Dear Joshua,
I am Bi-Polar and my name here on this board is Tamar.
I feel and have felt the way you are feeling so many times that I can't even count them anymore.
Please pray! I am praying for you right now.
God has a purpose for your life, he does. let's ask him to show you HIS WILL for your life O.K.?

Lord God maker of Heaven and of Earth here the cries of this child Lord. Please father you knew him before the foundation of the World. You knew him and formed him in his mothers womb. Every hair o his head is counted, numbered by you Lord.
Please Set Him apart for GOod Works Lord GOd.
Demon of SUicide you have NO AUthority over JOSHUA"S MIND. By CHrist's BLOOD GET AWAY From HIM NOW.
Lord send your Heavenly hosts to battle the enemy and protect Joshua. Bring him into fellowship with other Christians that will lead him into the right Chruch family and the study group he needs to be in.
Thank you Jesus Amen.

WHen two or three are gathered together in my name I am there amongst them.

If you still need help I would encourage you to please call 911, an ER or your Pdoc or therapist.

Joshua if you are feeling like this please ring 911 or the emergency services in your area. You need help. Go to the hospital call your doctor, I am sure that will be able to help you.
We are all here for you to, but you must get professional help. love Sam

THANK YOU TAMAR FOR BEING BOLD ENOUGH TO PRAY FOR HIM HERE ON LINE!!!! I'M IN TOTAL AGREEMENT WITH YOU!!! I WISH MORE PEOPLE WERE AS BOLD WITH IT AS YOU ARE! AND PRESCIOUS JOSHUA YOUR NAME ALONE TOUCHES MY HEART YOU HAVE A PURPOSE AND WE LOVE YOU!!!

I know how you feel..I'm 42 and still my life is just a series of starts and stops. At least now I know why!

Are you taking any medications? If you have a pdoc I would call them right away! If not then please call a suicide hotline or go to the hospital.

Let us know how you're doing k?

Try to read this, even if it is hard - just now.
Then call a hot line please.

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Joshua. I hope you are seeing a Pdoc! If not, I know a great one near you who might be taking new clients. Please see about getting on meds. It can take a long while to find what works for you, but there is usually some out there that will work with your brain. Please call Pdoc or go to the nearest hospital. ST. Jo's or Tac. Gen'l are good ones. Hugs!

hey i feel like that too n ive gotta keep fightin , so if i have to stay on this earth then so do u !! that sounds fair , dont it xxxxx
hang in there xxx

* USA: Hopeline (Suicide): 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
* USA: Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-Talk (1-800-8255)
* USA: Teen Hotline Covenant House NineLine: 1-800-999-9999
* USA: SOS Teen Hotline: 1-800-949-0057
* USA: Grief Recovery Helpline : 1-800-445-4808
* USA: Directory of local helplines / centers
* UK: Samaritans (Nat'l and local): 08457 90 90 90 or jo@samaritans.org
* Global directory of suicide hotlines

rjanie - if you stay, I'll stay and hopefully joshuaH will stay too.

I have said it before but you know suicide is a permanent solution to a temperary problem, get help now.

I have some more contemporary ways to remind you that you need to be here:

The Fray How to Save a Life:
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you


Three Days Grace Never Too Late:
This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Billy Joel Pressure and Your Only Human are great songs.
He also has BP and has suffered Suicidal Ideation.

Please call 911

Peace Love and Light
Bridie