i swear sometimes i would rather go without taking my meds, simply because of the weight i have gained being on them. i am 5'6" and used to wegh 130lbs. i looked nice, and was able to fit into cute tops and some really cute jeans, and omg during the summer i was actually able to wear shorts! now....yeah freaking right! it will be 112 outside, and i will be in jeans and a tank top because of my legs. i refuse to wear a bathing suit!. i eat healthy, excercise daily, and try not to over-indulge in the junk, but i have gained over 50lbs on these stupid freaking meds! im embarrassed to go out in public in anything other than jeams and a t shirt, and ugh i just hate it! if i could be ok without taking my meds, i would stop taking them right now, but for the safety of myself and my hubby, i refuse to stop taking them. that is the one thing that has literally saved my relationship. my meds. if i hadnt started taking my meds, my hubby would have left my crazy ass a long time ago, because i have gone into a couple of manic rages on him. dont remember going off on him, but i saw the marks and bruises the next day. i felt like shit of course, but him being the absofrigginlutely amazing man that he is, he stuck it out with me till my meds started kicking in, and i started returning to what he calls "the old me" i just want the skinny me back. i hate the weight gain that comes along with the meds that we get put on! why cant they make a med that doesnt come with a side effect of weight gain?
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