i can’t stop myself from making a fool of myself. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere and I don’t fit in anywhere. When I’m home it doesn’t feel like home. I just can’t be happy anymore and I’m so tired of trying to be happy. My trip to visit a friend just made her worry about me. I drove fifteen hours straight and once I got there it didn’t make me happy. I just don’t belong anywhere. I’m tired of trying.
so on days when I work I smoke 3-4 cigarettes cause I can’t smoke at work. On days I am off I knock out 8-10 cigarettes. I really want to stop smoking. I am going to see my gp on Friday for my yearly physical and I want to get her help to quit smoking. I see on tv ads for medications that can help you quit but a lot of them list depression and suicidal thoughts as a side effect and that is the...
I have be skipping the dr. for 3months. I have canceled 3 times I am hoping that they would just cancel me as a patient. It’s not like I’m on commitment. I have bipolar among other things. I filled out for a gun permit it’s not like there going to find out! I’m smarter than they are!