Ive been under a lot of stress lately, its triggering episodes! I'm so fucking annoyed, I've been wound up and feel like everyone irritates me no matter what they do. I take my olanzepine only when i need it and mostly in these type of situations where i feel agitated. I'm just tired of the bullshit and im tired of people getting upset with me because i am being triggered, like its my fucking fault!!!!! wtf I wouldnt say its mania though because im not happy at all im just edgy and angry and snappy, it feels like a bad case of PMS. I cant just eliminate the stress either, unless i want to throw everything away and say fuck it i give up, which sounds great right now but unfortunately its not too great for my family. I hate having responsibilities, wish I didnt have any, I just need to focus on me right now and i dont know how possible that is at this point. I hate this fucking bipolar and i hate my fucking life, it never gets easier
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