Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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Lately I am finding that I am questioning my mental state of mind. I am constantly wondering am I depressed or jut sad? Am I Manic, Hypomanic, or just happy? Am I stable?
WHat defines stable? I fear crashing...
My mood: I woke up at a normal hour and was happy to be awake. I am not afraid to adress my bills... (I still dont wanna clean) I have some anxiety but on the whole no panic attacks. I still feel the need to seek counciling (if it would ever get approved) yet I find my self having profound (to me) thoughts instead of the tiny triggers that use to be major to me. I was manic last weekend and this weekend just past I felt what I can only describ as normal.
I Dont actually know what normal is. I dont know what stable is. I dont know what just happy is. I worry that having the feeling of being able to address life issues and take em all head on is a sign of mania and that a crash is around the corner... I know I should enjoy the ride but I would like to know how to define stable for my self.
So what is stable for you? How do I set the guidelines for my self? I really need to hear from others since I have NEVER been stable my entire adult life... maybe when I was 9.... maybe....
WHat defines stable? I fear crashing...
My mood: I woke up at a normal hour and was happy to be awake. I am not afraid to adress my bills... (I still dont wanna clean) I have some anxiety but on the whole no panic attacks. I still feel the need to seek counciling (if it would ever get approved) yet I find my self having profound (to me) thoughts instead of the tiny triggers that use to be major to me. I was manic last weekend and this weekend just past I felt what I can only describ as normal.
I Dont actually know what normal is. I dont know what stable is. I dont know what just happy is. I worry that having the feeling of being able to address life issues and take em all head on is a sign of mania and that a crash is around the corner... I know I should enjoy the ride but I would like to know how to define stable for my self.
So what is stable for you? How do I set the guidelines for my self? I really need to hear from others since I have NEVER been stable my entire adult life... maybe when I was 9.... maybe....
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
True it is bed time... But I started a new med a few days ago and it helps me get a really good sleep that I havent had in ages. I actually feel better and feel like I think clearly. I feel like I have all these thoughts I just need to get out and talk about... and lucky for you all my counciling isnt approved yet so you get to hear what is going on in my brain... lord I feel bad for who ever ends up as my new councilor ;p
I'd say everyone faced with illness has this cruel phase.
It is a tortuous phase.Still a phase.
It'll be replaced with something else that chews yr soul.The next phase.
This uncertanty is very cruel for sure. Can I at least hope that the next phase is knowing that I am stable or at least reached a stable point? I would like to know that for once in my life I hit a normal stable place. That its not an unreachable goal... I think thats why it bothers me so much... never been there... just once I would like to know Im there and its an obtainable place. then in my darker times I can know I can reach it again in time
It's only after we think " Oh, that's changed for the better "
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MJ