When I think I've had enough, when I think the surprises from my estranged husband are dead and gone..BANG, right between the eyes. All I was doing was babysitting my grandson, we had a movie on, some cartoon movie. It ended and the dvd player swings into the next dvd..loading..And to my surprise its last Christmas, the one I had been so carefully removed from by my ex who lied to me telling me his parents were going to my son's for Ryan's first Christmas, but I could show up later. Well, there it was, playing right in front of me, the real reason I was excluded from Christmas. It's on tape, its recorded, my ex and his Girlfriend Lynn. She is why I was excluded. I seriously want to go out and hurt someone right now. I also want to go out and get drunk. I could care less who he sees, but NOT at my son's house on Christmas morning. How inappropriate. What a freakin bastard.
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