I am trying hard to learn how to do this socialization with lots of different people. Today I was at my parents house, they consider me the "mentally ill, nervous daughter, incapable and limited" on my forehead. They make sure everyone they know, has the knowledge that I am this way. So, today I went to their house because a cousin of mines which I had not seen for many years was coming over with my 2nd cousin, her nephew, and I wanted to see them. It was difficult because I could tell they had the knowledge that I was bipolar. I have been stable for 13yrs, and this has no meaning to my parents. Many people have no knowledge or very limited knowledge of mental illness in general. My anxiety was almost coming out of my trought, but I managed to believe what I heard in a preaching on t.v. "you don't have to have anxiety if you believe in God, for you know that he exists" and I practiced that, also I tried thinking very high of myself and this helped a lot, the wife of my 2nd cousin was comparing herself to me, she seemed quite insecure and angry or jeoulous, (I am sorry but I ignored her) I have to be safe. It is her problem if she believes one person has to be better or worse than another, i believe everyone has the same value.
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