last nighti was ready to through in the wight flag i was done i could not handdle the heat in the kitcher any more i hurt people around me last night i wanted to die to end the pain butwhat good would that have done then i rembered the two youngmen thatwould not understand at all me takeingthe easy wayout yes the dsrk sidehad me good an i was under ther feet thay were jumping on me hard so i finely just wentto bed i fell a little beter but i be damed if i am goingto letthe spirets of darkness win yes i belive in God with out him andhis help i wouldhave been gone long ago yesi get down and out at times and want the pain to stop but sucide not the ancer for me i have pepole that justwould not understand if i ever did that is the permant way to end pain andthem two boys wouldhavenothingand i have promised so much to them i have happy times with them and some sad we fight sometimes that is what a small family dose but we love one another yes we get on one anothers nervesbut when things look the worst the 4 of us pull to gether and fight a good badal even steven that has a mind of a 8 year old he may not totaly understan my tormant but he can love andthatiswhat pulled me through last nit when it wouldhave been easy to give in i rember that he would not understand goingto a funeral for me he thinki was comming back tomorrow or next week death to so final and i know i have many manty more days ahead heck i got a party to through some time this year kenny isgoingto make it out of high schoool get his deploma and be goingto colage soon he will need my help to makethe change from teen ager to a man i cant lethim down like that but i be damd i did not think about that last night yes i wantedto end the pain yes i could have verry easy hang my self from the rafters in the grage but the inpact itwouldhave had on my family not onely mom and dad but every one that knows me would been a sad day yes the spirets ofdarkness wouldhave throwen a big party but you know hell no no joy for them i put my foot down hard onthe head of saten said a little prayer and allwas good by morning time yes i am mad yes i want to go stomp one the head of every little lowly demon i can so i say lets pray and have a reval of God and go demon stomping it says in the bible that when you call out in Jesus name the little black demons run reminds me ofthestory wehn God cast outthe demons out ofthe guy in i think the wildness and thay askedto be cast out in to the pigs near by then the pigs went crazy and ran of a clift in to the water to end thetormant well i dont wantto tormant the animals i love pigs so i say lets stomp the head of all the demons out ther pee inthe cheros so to speck yes band with me and pray the more of usthat pray the stronger we are the more little dark spirets we stop so lets make a stand pray amillion angles to the week ones to pretect them andfor the rest of us thatis ready to stand tow to tow with satin him self make sure you have on you armer andare prayed up but for me iam not goingto run any more thedeval wants a pice of me well comeget it but i tell you sun i am prayed up andhavea big big personal family that belives in God and the word of God he has given and yes i have to say this andi typeit out saten you leave beacky alone you lier cheeter get away fromthe and out ofher mind i pray ten thousand angles to come stant gard over her andwith them tenthousand angles iam ther with my full armer of God on and my sord is sharp andyess he he i do rember some virces fromthe bible so you want to here one thatworks for me every day i cando all things through crist who strengthens me in the bible it says justthe fath of a muster seed can movea mountan well i have fath ten times that and i want this mountan moved for all of us i will not rest untill i know every one in my family is right with god and readyto badle tow to tow with the prince of darkness him self forget the little black demons i want saten him selfto come get me yes you bastard come raise you little heat so i can stomp on it saten get the beneeth my feet i bind you and your little cowards of dark spirets lets rock lets baddle i have my sord and my litle stone for you head just like little david agenst the gient i pick my three little stones and withthe hand of Jesus on them i find my target every time rightbetween the eyes hell yes lets rockand role saten i here to fight
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