two things you must have:

1) HOPE
2) A PLAN

losing hope fast and only plans i can come up with are the wrong ones.

stay with us, come to this haven to talk. You are not alone. Look at all the Posts, we're all in this together. Stay on meds & find a really good pdoc/therapist you trust.

im taking my meds, but my doc changes everytime and they keep moving my appointment back. they dont give a fuck.

HOPE - you need to work on this NOW.

a PLAN - you need to stay pro-active with your doctor, be totally honest, and mamage these meds. also in this plan should include therapy, support groups, walking, reading, excersise, yoga...things like that

start slow, be nice to yourself

thankyou for your advice

I just don't dwell on it anymore. It is what it is, I am destined to be alone the rest of my life, so be it, I just don't care anymore.

That helps me actually, something about accepting the fact that that is just the way it is is strangely comforting

I was severely depressed for over two years bed ridden sticks the whole thing. BUUUT Now am happy fulfilled and in love. Penniless jobless etc but MAD AND GLAD

I am sorry you are having a bad day. I am too :(. But, I know that my husband will be home from work soon and that will make me feel better. You have to concentrate on the little things that can make you happy. A lot of little things add up to a good day! :)

Every one of us on this site has felt like this at one time or another so please don't feel alone. I lose my hope at least once an hour and somehow it comes back again and yours will too. I want to find myself again too. Someitmes I wonder "who am I really?" with all this bp crap in my life, but I know who I am and I hold on to that and that in itself is my hope. Good luck to you. You will make it.

thankyou...i know i have some hope in there somewhere im just having real trouble finding it lately. im trying to look at the small things that are good but im having trouble with that too. i will keep trying though and hopefully tommorow will be better. thankyou for your support.it really means a lot.

I admire you for recognizing the small things and understanding you do have hope you just cant feel it right now. Make your plan when you are up so you can go over it when you are done. Writing has been tremendous for me and great therapy. When I am down, I read the up journals and it helps alot. I am reminded of the good days and that they are just around the corner. You may always struggle finding the positive when you are down, but I admire that you try. Trying in repetition will make it easier and easier to achieve.

I agree with shelly, it is in the small stuff I find comfort and I am glad you too see that. I feel like I've been in this hole for a long time, but I keep trying and even though it seems to get me no where, I keep going... Don't give up sweets! This too shall pass.

You may feel alone but your not, we all go through what you are going through at present. I defenatly do. Try to hang in there, when your down the only way left for you to go is up.
Take care
Love and hugs
Bett

It's 6hrs. since you posted this and I'm wondering how you are now???