I'm slipping...slipping further and further into depression. I'm feeling myself close myself off more and more everyday, it's getting harder to get up, harder to go to work, harder to put a smile on my face and act like everything is fine. I went and saw my daddy today...it's been a little over 6 and a half years since he died and I still cried as hard as I did when I went there after only a year. Nothing I'm doing is helping, I can't get out of this state. I feel like I'm loosing my mind almost. I can't think straight, can't concentrate. I get frustrated all the time with myself because I can't remember the stupidest things. It's embarrassing when you're in the middle of a conversation and your mind starts wondering and then all of sudden it goes blank. It's like my brain keeps rebooting!!! I can't keep dealing with this!!!! I don't know what to do...it truly is getting very hard to do my job. I'm at a loss right now, I'm confused, I'm lost, I'm sad....Right now all I wanna do is go to sleep and never wake up...
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