Here's the thing. I can feel myself sinking into another deep, deep, dark depression and no matter what I try, nothing is helping. Since being diagnosed as BP (along with other severe disorders) I've been on meds and in treatment. I've gained 50 pounds from being on one med that I'm no longer on and I can't lose the weight no matter what I try. My husband doesn't help anything because he's an online cheating ass. Sure he does alot to help around the house and with the kids at times. But DAMMIT! What about me????? Where do I fit in to the equation of his life other than when it comes to sex? I hate it! Sure my meds play a key role in my lack of interest. But just for once, if he could convince me that it's me and ONLY me on his mind when he's in the mood, maybe I'd try harder. I'm lost. I feel so alone. Even when I try to talk to my own family about anything to do with my BP, they give me this look that makes me feel like they're thinking "Here she goes again with her crazy BP imaginings again". I just feel like there's no one in my life that understands..........
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