Yes and Yes. It will go away, it's just a down right now, and if you're BP you will have to deal with it the rest of your life. My pdoc helps me with techniques on how to deal with the bad times, maybe ask your pdoc for some tips?

Yes, you may have to deal with this all your life, but there are things you can do to help yourself. I get that recording in my head too that tells myself over and over how horrible and unloveable I am and how useless my life is. It sounds corney, but affrimations really do help. Take the time when you feel ok to daily tell yourself good things. Give yourself compliments. Slowly you will start to believe yourself. Just know that these bad feeling always pass. If you need to talk, please feel free to message me. I get what your going through totaly and completely.

Sounds stupid, but I feel better knowing I am not alone in the fact that I suffer through the same shit.

I am currently in self destruct mode and trying to put the brakes on. It's hard, but I have to try. It's all I've got

You are not alone! And even my "normal" friends are sinking down right now b/c we are going into winter. With BP it's up & down but come here & know you are in a big boat with a lot of others just like you. LOVE YA!

I feel the same way alot of times. I'm hoping that the right meds will give me some kind of balance. Embrace the good days it will help make up for the low times until you're balanced. You will feel better.

I hate that instant drop from OK to some bizarre lonliness, depression, or paranoia.

Just sit back and breath in and out. Or keep posting here and reading advice in the advice column. It will help you with the time until things get better.

By chance, are you upset mainly bcs of what happened with the relationship?