i am done. why am i so depressed, i have no reason to be but i feel like the world has swallowed me up and spit me out. i hate this. i feel terribly lonely and sad but i am not alone. i feel like i have to cry but the tears won't come. there are things i should be doing but i can't bring myself to do it. it is a miracle i got dinner made but i only did it for kidlet, i can't even eat. dh is out plowing the roads because we are having quite the snowstorm and won't be home til midnight and will have to go back to work at noon tomorrow and kidlet will be going out to ride her horse so i really will be alone. i hate feeling this way. i should be excited, my daughter and grandson are flying up on monday to spend two weeks. dh is off of work for a week. kidlet has no school on monday and friday. i hate this disorder, i hate myself.
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