You are not a wothless piece of crap! Forgive yourself and try not to dwell so much on how you were- focus on how you now ARE!

Oh Calus, if only you knew! There are so many things I've done that try to bring me down. but, one thing we can't do is go back and change anything. Suffering over the past is futile.
Apologize where you can, and give the rest to God.
I heard a minister say, once that when we keep bringing the sins of the past up to god to ask forgiveness over and over..He's like "What are you talking about?" the bible says that He forgives our sins and remembers them no more.
now if only our memories were like that....


YOU ARE NOT A WORTHLESS PIECE OF CRAP!!!!

As long as you've learned from them, let the past go and move on. I know how hard it is.

i know how you feel and i have been feeling the same way.. i have been thinking of asking for forgivness from people like my mom who i stole a lot of money from and people i have screwed over in various ways but the thought of even bringing it back up to these people is so humiliating. you're not alone and your not a worthless piece of crap.. everybody makes mistakes wether they have an illness or not.. don't be too hard on yourself.. the more i think about it the more i think asking for forgiveness might not be so bad but making mistakes doesn't make you a bad person it just makes you human

Reader, that's excellent advice!

I can relate to this..You just have to realize you are not worthless. You can probably even eliminate half of the guilt just by stopping and thinking "how many ppl would remember this or that?" Guilt is the worst!
That was not really 'you' ya know...so let you off the hook. You would do that for your best friend..do it for you too
((hug))

The first and most difficult thing to do is forgive yourself for doing the things you have done in your past. You can face them one at a time if you need to and conquer them. Learn from your past mistakes. Work at being the best you can be from this day forward. If you need forgiveness from those you have hurt in your past, ask for it. You will be surprised how many will forgive you if you take responsibility for those actions. However, with most of your past behavior, it probably is best to leave it in your past. Since I have know you, I have know you to be full of wonderful, loving advice. You are not a piece of crap, you are a human being that has made some mistakes just like the rest of us. You are forgiven. I appreciate your friendship and I know you can be a better person for yourself and those you love. Luv and hugs

You are a beautiful person and I am glad that you are my friend. It's not your fault for having bipolar. You are a very loving person.

Agree with comments about forgiving self for this illness.

We have all done things to either hurt ourselves embrass ourselves or embarass other people but we cant turn back time all we can do is move foward and not dwell on the stupid shit weve done And try to keep in mind even people who arent by polar have done stupid and embarrasing things

calus you are a thoughtful person I can tell by reading thru your past posts please dont feel so down Forgive yourself. put it out of your mind and try to be the best person you can (((big hug)))

Of course you're not worthless! Your worth does not lie in what you Do; it is in Who you Are.

Who you Are, is telling you to feel guilty because YOU are not a person who would do those things normally, if not for illness and situation.

Therefore - YOU are not a "worthless piece of crap"!

My parents taught me from childhood to separate what i DID, from who I WAS. They would say things like, "I didn't like what you did" - NOT "I don't like YOU BeCause you did" - get it?

YOU are in control of Today, Calus - none of us can change the Worthless Crap we DID before, but we can go forward from today and not do it anymore! (anymore than we can help, LOL)

Separate it, Calus - You are You, defined by your BEING, not by your ACTIONS. Actions can change, but your Being - stays the same.

*Hugs*

Thanks guys, you've really helped me pull through tonight.

We have all have done crap like that, we were out of control. Now you know you have BP, now you know to take your meds, and now you do better. Ya know oh well can't change the past, tell yourself your sorry and have a happy day. It is allowable you know:)

Calus, you are not worthless. Certainly not a piece of crap either. I think everyone has done things of which he/she is not proud. I know that there are too numerous of events that I have participated in that I wish to God that I hadn't and wouldn't if they posed right now. However, the past is the past.

You served your country and that is something in which to take pride. You are a compassionate, caring, understanding, and intelligent person. Stop beating yourself up over things in the past. Deal with the present things. And, keep an eye on the future things. Know that you are a better person than you give yourself credit for being. Hang in there tough guy.