No one really talks about this. Sexual disfunction can be a huge part of our disorder. Mine is definitely getting out of control. I truly fear it is going to get me killed. The last couple of times I have kinda preyed on guys the way men prey on women. The time before last I ended up going home with two guys and was with them at the same time. For some reason this gives me a huge adrenaline rush. I was in control and it felt so good. How are we suppose to control these urges. I am a thirty-four year old, but at any age this is dangerous. What makes it kinda worse was I told them I didn't want to know their names and I wasn't going to tell them mine. I left shortly after we were done and that was it. If any one has any advice or feed back I am open to whatever at this point.
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