Hi, i hope someone remembers me? i feel really bad today. i cant function, cant think straight, im convinced my partner and my girls will be better off without me and my bp around, i told my partner this morning that i wanted to call the wedding off and move out. i stopped the car because i was so frightened that the woman that looked at me was persessed by the devil and she wanted my soul, i want a gold star surrounded by a portective circle to wear round on a chain so it hangs over the middle of my chest so it protects me from evil, im convinced that i have an angel looking out for me but he cant help because the evil is too strong. i really tried so hard last night not to loose my temper because my daughter lost her school jumper, i knew it was irrational and i kept taking myself away from the situation but i couldnt help but go back and shout some more - i managed to stop myself from kicking and throwing things. i dont want to go out, and ive cancelled my ironing lady coming over cos i dont want to see anyone. my sleeping meds ran out friday and ive had little sleep since then so i suppose that doesnt help. i really feel shit :(
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