i have been doing pretty well lately and i woke up this morning feeling anxoius and lonely and almost confused. i know that i shouldnt think like this but it seems like whenever im doing well, having a bad day scares me. im afraid that i wont come out of it and that i will have to go through the depression and mood swings and urges to hurt myself like i have been in the past. it terrifies me that i might go back to that after ive been doing so well. its like im dissapointed with myself even though its not my fault. i also have a problem with self injury during depressed moods and while im not thinking of hurting myself right now, im afraid that i will get that way again and thats the last thing i want to do. i know that i would never hurt my child or my awesome husband but i dont want to hurt myself and end up in the psych hospital again either. i keep having to tell myself that its just bad day and that it will pass but i still feel like a failure for having this bad day. does anyone else feel lke that? any help you could give me would be great!
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