i have been doing pretty well lately and i woke up this morning feeling anxoius and lonely and almost confused. i know that i shouldnt think like this but it seems like whenever im doing well, having a bad day scares me. im afraid that i wont come out of it and that i will have to go through the depression and mood swings and urges to hurt myself like i have been in the past. it terrifies me that i might go back to that after ive been doing so well. its like im dissapointed with myself even though its not my fault. i also have a problem with self injury during depressed moods and while im not thinking of hurting myself right now, im afraid that i will get that way again and thats the last thing i want to do. i know that i would never hurt my child or my awesome husband but i dont want to hurt myself and end up in the psych hospital again either. i keep having to tell myself that its just bad day and that it will pass but i still feel like a failure for having this bad day. does anyone else feel lke that? any help you could give me would be great!
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...