I use to take it. I stopped because it took away all my feelings. I didnt care about love, I didnt care about anything. I was blank of emotion. But things have been so hard as of late that I want the "none feeling" again. I want that feeling of nothingness. To just not be. Everything hurts me, every emotion gets so big in my head till I cant breath. I need to escape it, even if its fake, even if its drug endused. Has anyone ever had that reaction to seroquel? Is this the right answer? How can just living be so hard? Whats the better way to be? Cold and unfeeling to escape hurt or so full of emotion its staggering?
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