yes yes yes, and YES! Good lord I get so tired of rebuilding my life, and then tearing it apart when i do.... UGGGH... yes i can relate, and for me at least, it seems to be a recurring issue

oh my!!!! that definitly sounds bipolar to me!! the all day in bed one sounds great though!!

I think anything sabotage is BP, boy was I good at it! Your last paragraph above, yes, yes, yes, sounds like myself! Sounds like BP!

I can totally relate. I sabotage myself too. It sucks. For me it's just a normal part of the depression and lack of caring about anything. I am my own worst enemy.

yeah i do that to often. i have my own business and its such a struggle everyday just to go, its terrible but sometimes i just dont go to work when people expect me and i dont answer my phone for weeks.i pretty much ruin my relationships every few months. like i leave my husband and dont talk to people. i think though people are starting to figure out that its not really me, its my crazy head that i dont have any control over.

Hell yes! Sabatoge is normal unfortunately for us. I have a business, employees, wife in school, bills up the ass and i don't give a shit. If I quit answering the phone, the fucking clients will stop calling. I do like the idea of staying in bed for a day or two or three!

i know exactly where your coming from. i lost my very best friend cuz when it came time to talk i just didnt have the energy to do it.She thought i was being a bit stand offish
i came THISCLOSE to throwing saways the family that has loved me mt whole life over to some stranget whe is like here im the mom now i love birth famlies very mcu but i know that will never happeni want BOTH my moms to be moms to me thank God i chose the right people.,BP messes with you mind.

i agree...yes, yes, yes
for example with me, in the past 45 days or less, i've completely screwed my life up..it's inside out and i am now lost and completely unsure of myself. and i got dumped, got 2 hospitalizations, self injured so bad i broke bones and am still hurt, had to go on med leave at work, so no income now, and picked up a stupid charge for telephone misuse and theft under a 100.00 (i called a restaurant and phoned in food order & never picked it up)..and worse..i told my veterans rep that i hate college and want to move..(where in the hell am i going?)
i'm a fucking mess and i hate what i did

sorry for the typos meds are kicking in

I was told by the therapist/social worker in the hospital back in August that I self sabotaged while there, although I think she was just a bitch who didn't like me from the start because I refused to let her call my mom to discuss my problems and to tell her to take my gun away. If I did self sabotage, I have no idea how I done it since she didn't explain. I was on an emotional roller coaster while there. One minute I was extremely angry. The next minute, I was crying hysterically. Then, I'd feel great.

I admit that I have self sabotaged in the past. I'm sure most of us BP's have. It's also something BPD sufferers do, and I, unfortunately, battle that bitch of a disorder as well.

im kinda doing that right now too , i just kinda stopped going to work , and decided im going to move , but then i relized oh crap i need money for that so now im gonna get another job and start all over again, but its ok i guees im used to starting all over again constantly

Build it up, Fuck it up...story of my life!

yeah, I'm moving to Guam in 2 months. My sabotage came at the most inconvenient time....

I have friends that are not bipolar that do that. My therapist said it has to do w/low self esteem and insecurity.

that explains everything :P