I am relatively new to this site and hoping to connect. In anycase, I have recently recognized how I self-medicate. It is amazing to me that I have never really realized this because I've dabbled in everything ellicit since I've been 16. You name it and I overdue it to get out of my head. So recently I've been trying to really phase out my last evil - the 'drink' - and I find that by 'around day 7 I need it! I'll end up drinking too much and then maybe eating too much. The following day is just a similar mess of recovery in a hangover form - I medicate with high fat foods and TV and self-disgust. It is this total roller coaster. I feel like such a mess and it is just amazing to me how that besides my disorder I am personally cognizant of how to exacerbate it and yet I do it anyway. Anyone have similar ideas they want to share?
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