had a meltdown but valium is kicking in. i still have a strong urge to cut or hurt myself in some way so i can feel the physical pain instead of the mental. (have a history of cutting) talked to my mom and she actually encouraged me to go and get a new tattoo which I'm sure will help. i have an appt @ 2:30 and she's going with me. anyone else self mutilate? any tricks you've tried? i've tried the ice cube and rubber band but they don't really help.
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