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Scars and jobs.

deleted_user
deleted_user
I was not medicated for a long time. I thought medication was a weak solution, but now that I have been taking meds for about two years I know I was wrong. Medication makes my life a lot better. But while I was not medicated I did a lot of really stupid shit. Worst one being that I was manic and decided that I needed to write angry letters to people in blood (terrible idea) so now have some crazy scars on my arms. Top, bottom, you name it, everywhere. And I am pretty sure I lost a job today because of it. Whenever people see the scars they recoil immediatly, but it is what it is. And sometimes I still become manic, but now I have support, so it isn't so bad. I just worry that I will never be able to get a job with other people (I work mainly from home now) without them being freaked out by the scars, and also because I know I still become very manic sometimes ( rarely and only for a few days) . It's the worrying that is rough right now, which is why I am still awake. Ergh.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Ergh......I dream that I am paralized and cannot move when I am attacked by demons...I know I have to work, live, Play, but I am unable due to my condition...every night is the same story, just new inventions... I am paralized, I cannot move...I am a prisoner of my condition...every night is the same....I can never escape.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Ergh... I get it. And I feel like that sometimes. It sucks. But even prisoners escape. Focus on that, escape is possible. Outsmart or outwill your demons. . . They have no right to give you shit. Thats what I tell myself.... works most the time.
starfish
starfish
It's a good thing you have found a way to get income from home....it is a terrible thing that our society STILL stigmatizes people with mental health issues, even as far as we've come with tollerance and acceptance.

Education, education, education.

And DS is bringing that a long way!!

I'm glad you're here.
deleted_user
deleted_user
long-sleeved tops?
starfish
starfish
I was thinking that, too, lou.
deleted_user
deleted_user
yeah, I tried the long sleeved tops. But then summer comes. I mean, can you really expect to hide your arms forever? And I tried, I tried hard for a while. I made a mistake, but I can't have guilt forever. Least if its out there people can choose their reaction, and I don't have to try so hard to hide.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yeah, a guy here with trackmarks on his arm wrote a show about it called, '10 years in a longsleeved top'..twas funny.
sjdaud
sjdaud
Wear long sleeves.

People who have hyperhidrosis (excessive sweating) also have to wear them to soak up the sweat so that it isn't running down their arms. Many other conditions cause people to wear long sleeves - psoriasis, eczema, etc.

Don't apologize or explain if people ask why you always wear long sleeves. Just hint that it is a personal condition and a preference.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I can't relate to the issue about scars because I've never cut myself, I can however relate to not being able to find a job because of bp. I'm in a field where any mental health issues have to be fully disclosed and right now I'm wondering if studying for that carreer field was a bad choice to begin with. While I can't necessarily blame society for being wary of people with mental health conditions I can never understand why people like us are never even given the chance to redeem ourselves. All I can say is, keep looking around and keep fighting bro. It'd all we can really do in the face of adversity.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Just do the long sleeves to get in the door. Once you prove to be an asset to your company, no one will care. Just get like a meat grinder or wood chipping story prepared. Or you can tell them the truth, AHHHHHHHHHHHH No!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I don't have visible scars. But last year was my first at a new school (I'm a teacher). I was depressed the first half of the year and manic most of the second half. So I turned a lot of people off. I am back again this year (stabilized)and I see more clearly now the hesitancy of my co-workers towards me. They will never know who I am and it hurts every day. I'll probably end up leaving because of it.
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