Hi! Believe it or not I was told that not one soul on this earth would ever put up with the trauma this disease creates at times.That I would in fact be alone forever.My ex told me he was probably the only person that would.And why did I think I had no friends???Well I have lost all my friends,most of my family,and over 6 months ago a boyfriend.For some crazy reason I contacted him,and seeing I was "well" he was thinking maybe we should try again,I've been feeling great but I felt we needed to talk about what would happen if I had an "episode" He told me he didn't know if he would stay or leave.Is this stupid or am I not seeing the big picture???Kick to the curb?? It's like he thinks I made a choice to destroy my life.I wrote my second suicide note over this?My gosh will anyone ever understand?
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