I have a big family, I mean siblings, but there are no relashionships between us. Maybe I have some fault as we all do, but I hate to call any of them up knowing how hypocrites they are. Some are very nice and then when we get together they are so hypocritical, I hope I don't have to explain that part. With there eyes and behavior and indirect statements of things only of the family. Then it starts all over again. Some call me to treat me so nice, only to be a hypocrite when we meet. So what is the use? The truth is I feel horrible when I am around them. Many times they treat me like I am supposed to be jeoulous of them. The thuth is, I am happy for anyone who has blessings, as long as they do good with whatever they have. Which they don't at their age they prance around like ignorant and inmature children. So, I guess I will see my relatives, stay for a while, and leave, I guess that is the best option, and if they bring me a gift, I will say thank you and leave. I won't be giving gifts, I really don't have the money, only to those closest to me.
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