As so many of you know, I have been very candid about my life with all of you. If nothing else I hope I can help some of you avoid the mistakes I've made.
My husband has told me many times I needed to change. Rather than accept I'm sick with BiPolar I looked for any other excuse and told him I was curing myself. Now his family thinks I've cried wolf one too many times.
Now I am ready to face Bipolar head on so that I may be a more stable person. Though my husband and I are 5000 miles away, I still want him to know I'm dedicated to change my life for real this time.
So many of his fears of coming home are the fears of my blaming him for everything, putting him down, pushing him away, my job jumping, my irrational thinking and decision making, my impulsive shopping, and numerous other demons that bipolar has done to me.
I think once the therapy and medications begin, I will see marked improvements in all those aspects. But since I've been so "self cured" over and over I'm afraid my husband will not listen to me.
Do you guys think I should ask him to come to DS for not only tracking my progress but to further understand that I am not some freak of nature?
I've got many apologies to make, many hearts to heal, and I dont know where to begin. I've begin by praying to God, and it led me to the realization I'm bipolar. So I'm now no longer in denal thanks to Him.
Any advice would be so much appreciated.

Thanks and many hugs to you all.

Tracy