I'm horribly depressed. MY doctor took me off lamitical because it wasn't working and I was just on seroquel and klonapin for anxiety for a bit. I was doing ok, biting the bullet so to speak. Than I kicked a friend out my apt, got in a fight where a lot of cruel things were said[http://dailystrength.org/people/267137/journal] and I've hit rock bottom. I'm so depressed I started cutting again and fantasize about suicide even though I won't do it. I cancled my 21st birthday party. I can't stop crying. I can't concentrate on any task. I haven't left my apartment where I live alone with my cat in days. My doctor wont even be answering his emails till the 24. I don't know what to do. I have some prozac and welbutrin I was considering taking to just get me out the house maybe I don't know. I'm sooo deppressed and I can't get out of it and none of my friends are there for me.
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