I'm diagnosed with rapid cycling bipolar, among other things. I've also got borderline personality disorder, anxiety disorder, agoraphobic tendancies, PTSD, and who knows what else. Anyhow, I'm hitting a point right now with my moods that just ticks me off. I've noticed that about every three to four months my mood does this rapid cycling depressive shift. In that, my mood will go into this horribly depressive state, yet it cycle up here and there, and it's a fast fast cycle that never stays. I'm so fed up with it and so angry that I have to deal with it. I have a good med combo, my therapy is very effective and my life isn't all bad. I just am in this rapid cycle period at this point where it's worse then normal and I'm fed up with it. It's messing up my relationship with my sister, I'm moody, shifty, irritable, crabby and it affects how I react to my husband because I become overly sensitive when I'm like this. Not sure why I'm posting this actually. Just to get it out maybe? I know there has to be someone out there that understands this, even to a small degree. I don't wish this upon anyone, but, unfortunately, I'm sure there is someone out there who deals with this too. Maybe we can get to know one another and support each other.
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