i am pretty certain i'm rapidly cycling from depression to some form of mania. its driving me fucking insane! i can't even keep up with myself. one day i'm so depressed i want to drive myself into a cement wall full speed, then i sleep for 12 hours waking up feeling fairly normal and good. other days i am jumping around talking 50 mph and getting pissed cos nobody can keep up with me and living on 2 hours of sleep. wtf!!! someone please put a halt to this. i feel like dr. jekyl and mr. hide. im so all over the place, its like i don't know who i am going to be when i wake up. i seriously think i'm going to crack up. i'm very eager for my dr.s appt. only 11 more days. 11 more days until i can get some relief, but if he doesn't know what to do then i'm totally fucked. i can't keep going like this. i need to level out a little bit or else i will end up in the hospital.
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