the black cat is back. she is creeping around corners but won't come close to me. i tell her to go away and she will for a bit and then i see her again. she doesn't scare me, but the hallucinations coming back does. tremors are in full force write now, having trouble typing, keep having to use the delete and backspace button. my stomach is totally a mess. i took my morning meds along with an ativan to help, it hasn't kicked in yet. i need to go to the grocery store but i don't want to leave the house. i tried to get kidlet to walk to the busstop but she was running late so i had to take her. it was ok because she was with me half the time. the i can't do this anymore button was pushed and i am trying my damndest to work thru this, but i am having a hard time. i need some help but i don't know who to call. mom, pdoc? dh and i went thru this last night and he gave me some tough love. i don't want to call him at work because he will worry. i almost feel like i need to go in. it has been years and numerous med changes since my dx, when will it end. will it end by me.
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