I started a book club 6 years ago, there is 11 of us women who read the same book then discuss it over snacks and drinks 5 times a year. It is the one thing I do for myself. Started out to be a great club, but two of the women I can't stand! The last year and half, I find that I don't want to go to the meetings, mostly because of them (Gossipy bitches), my husband noticed I was starting to go manic before the meeting last night. Once I got there, I was feeling agitated and kept talking WAY TOO MUCH, saying things that I don't want people to know. Yelling shut up in my head...nothing works...kept on talking. All I could think of was wanting to drink. I love the books, reading, and most of the other women...but I think the stress these two women cause me, is reason enough to quit? I've read that if your manic, most people try to stay at home, keep themselves safe. I kind of feel okay about quitting, but am resentful at the same time. Mixed feelings here....do I quit and give up the club and women's company I do enjoy or stick it out and risk more stress that causes me to go manic? Plus, I always feel down or on edge after a meeting. I may have the answer myself, after writing this. Luv ya!
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