Well I have recently switched from ativan to xanax for a few weeks because of increasing mania and anger spurts. Im hooked already ..if I dont take one every few hours I get a monster headache , but it almost feels worth it. I dont drink or smoke anymore *i just lied a bit* but I am the most sober I have ever been in my life. I wont talk to my pdoc about it for fear he will cut me off. He really trusts me or he is just easily manipulated. I will go back on the ativan on the 14th . But I feel like they are candy at this point ..my body craves to relax. My mind never stops. I take lamictal and ativan and thats all Ill ever take for fear of damageing my organs. I went to rehab for coke and Im afraid these are just more substances . I think I took 5 xanax tody. Im allowed 3. Basecally I dont need a "slap on the hand". I just want to know if anybody knows what Im going thru ..xoxoox
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