Hi everyone. It has been a long time since i posted anything here. When I was a regular here, I was somewhat of a rock...Strong,independent, loving, helpful,and yes I did have my bad days where I was even a B*tch at times. That has been over a year ago. In this time away, I was in a relationship that I thought i needed. It turned out to be very emotionally abusive. I was literally yelled at every day, and his friends treated me like a horrible person. I finally got the courage to leave him on Christmas Eve, and since then have realized that he damaged me emotionally even more than i thought. I no longer feel like a strong rock, or an eagle with wings to protect others. I was not even able to protect myself. I have been faithfully taking my meds all year and they don't even seem to be helping anymore. I know i need to discuss this with my pdoc. Depression and worthlessness are very strong feelings now.
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