I get so nervous i can barely talk, and never end up saying what I meant to.

Strum! Set your camel aside and put down that turkish coffee.
Are you seeing a therapist? You really should. Only the two of you can figure out what brings this on. Are you afraid he'll say "no. sorry. you're really a schizophrenic"? Or he won't give you meds. OR...you don't want to acknowledge your bipolarness. Really..get this talked over. Hmmm, maybe you're just a nervous person? Does it happen any other times? gee, i wasn't very helpful was i?

Yep. My words get jumbled up and I lose my concentration. Then I walk out mad at myself because I forgot some pretty important things. Now I'm writing them down and talking them with me.

I'm always shaking before my psych and therapy apts. I often forget what I wanted to talk about or tell. I've been in and out of therapy all my life and still can't seem to remain calm. I think I'm still embarrassed by my feelings and now my diagnosis.

well, I guess with talking to a psych, you have to be totally honest and honest and thats always hard, to be brutally truthful about how you are with no smokescreen. I think there is also afear that he/she will tell you something you don't want to hear.

Just my pennys worth!

i also get very nervous and dont say what i wanna say

I write stuff down now.Sheesh.I never thought of that till last year.
Dobie, this is my serious bit.

'Oil' Be Back

I am always nervous that he is going to read into shit. So I tend to overrationalize.
Then again, my pdoc is basically a PEZ dispenser.

If I talk too fast.He's suspicious.
If I don't talk..he's suspicious.
I'm suspicious of him!

I had a real strange fear that they would not let me back out. LOL weird huh. I told my therapist. He said, well, if you are thinking of killing yourself or someone else, don't tell the pdoc. LOL I thought that was funny.

Maybe you are afraid he's going to judge you. It's hard to open up to someone and tell them private things. Ialways decide exactly what I want to say before I go and then I do fine.

I tell him stuff but find myself censoring myself on the spot

You know, Strum, he's recording every little conversation you have with him.
Prob. video too.

yeah and sending it to your parents
lol
NOT

My pdoc told me to join a white supremacy group! Told me, if I was a horse... he'd have to shoot me. I get EXTREMELY nervous when I see him. I start freakin' out about a week before my appointment.