Okay, now that I have your attention, can you sit through a story? This site is for support, and I am reaching out for support. Alright, so about a month ago I was REALLY manic, and I hadn't been manic for years before that, and I didn't realize I was. I made a big slip up in my life, and I regretted it terribly afterwards. I know I cannot blame a chemical imbalance for my actions, but in my defense I did not know what I thought was real, wasn't. I do not want to disclose what I did for privacies sake, but I do need to talk about it, so bear with me. I am manic again, but not in a good way. Tonight I stepped up and took a bit of responsiblity for my actions, and did what I could to right the wrong. I feel horrible now, I have hurt someone close to me, and am feeling more guilt than I ever want to. So here is my request: Give me love and support. Let me know there are others out there that care, that can understand. I am sorry I am not that detailed, but all I am looking for is love. That sounds pathetic, but right now I feel pretty damned pathetic. Sorry to bother you wonderful folk, but I think now, you are the people I need. Thank you for your time.
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