I have spent the last3 years and 5 months being off meds, I have been pregnant, nursing, , or getting back on meds and having to quit because I am pregnant again, I love my kids, I love being pregnant and being a mom, I hate the manias that I am going through, a lot of rages, I loose touch with reality and I get paranoid that my husband and family are out to get me. I know my triggers, yet I cannot control when others, my husband fucks with them, when I feel boxed in emotionally, I snap, the agitation ticks away at my brain. It is like he out of the blue picks at me, "What is wrong with you, you don't look ok, and so on , That sets me off. Being pregnant does not help ,with my hormones already out of wack, to top it off, his favorite phrase for me is crazy bitch. I begin to believe it. I know this, NO more babies, and back on meds after 6 weeks of nursing, if I can make it. How do you get your family and husband on board to support you, we have been in couples theray for 14 months, I tell him to back off, or I dont like how you are talking to me, or ask him to mirror me, try to listen, as you can tell I am all over the place, I am recovering from a two day manice rage fest.
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