Finding out what was wrong with me.

Being able to get an a treatment plan and getting better!

Hi, cabby77!!!!
I both love and hate the hypersexuality, depending on the circumstances at any given time!!!
What I hate most about it is that I once was very mentally sharp and am now little better than a dunce!!!

I love the creativity that can come with my hypomanic stage but I hate the fact that I can get any sleep or rest.

I agree feral. I am a very creative person. It's my passion, what I am good at, and my healthy therapy.:)

i Love it when i get Totally focused on story i'm writting. i'll stay up all night writting. and spend twenty minutes trying to figure out where to place a comma. and even when i'm forced to get up and do other things, like eat, work, school, ect, i'm still constantly thinking about it. like it's an obsession. and then after editing it a thousond times and i'm finally finished, i feel sooooo great. like i just gave birth. and then i can sleep. and that is always the best kind of sleep

I like the mania...being able to run from here to there non stop without any sleep. I stay on the road mostly, and when I come home, I clean like a mad woman. I accomplish a great deal! I like feeling that way and actually feeling as though I'm happy for a change, even if it isn't real.

What I hate is coming down...crashing. I hate it when, even though I have crashed, I still cannot sleep. I hate it when my mind goes blank, making it impossible to remember such simple things. I hate the psychosis I suffer from time to time. I hate being on a roller coaster ride...up, down, up, down, up, up, down, up! I guess that's called rapid cycling?

Anyway, right now, I hate the depressive episode I'm falling into.

I am sorry jillx. That you are n a dowm cycle. I have had so may ups an downs.... but not to sound cheesy or anything but I do believe things happen for a reason and I believe in some twisted way of faith that we are blessed, we just don't always know how to harness this magic.:)

I love hypomania, not having to sleep as much, and feeling so acutely alive.

I hate the depressive side which gets very bad for me, and unfortunately, my current meds don't seem to be controlling the depression very well.

Hate the fact that I can not always tell what perceptions are real and which are being distorted by the bipolar.
Love those that love me anyway.

do you guys know what its like to be manic for like a month i mean really manic. sleep. i'll vote for sleep.

I am 51 years old and had a hysterectomy right after I turned 42. For 9 years I was on a certain level of HRT. About 4 months ago, my dr. decided it was time for me to quit the premarin. I said "no way. not cold turkey" So, she cut it in half.
Instant hypermania!!!
At first it was enjoyable, but add many-layered thoughts all going 100 miles an hour, lack of sleep, and real life...for the first time ever, I truly felt insane. I felt that I was on the verge of needing to be hospitalized. It scared the be-jeepers out of me.
Now, I'm like crashing. I don't want to see anybody, leave the house, answer the phone, babysit my grandkids. I just want to be alone.
also scarey.

I love the communication and words that have been ' forced' upon me, in order that I can convey to a large extent how the BP makes me feel.
I don't like questioning the validity of an opinion I have purely based on how others will put a spin on it.On account of the 'He's nuts anyway' disclaimer.

I love being funny, witty, the life of the party, energetic, creative, optimistic, hypersexual and spendthrift.

I hate being aggressive, irritable, forgetful, tactless and sleepless :))

But hey you gotta take the good with the bad :))

I like the highs way better than the lows. I spent 15mnths on a med free high and if you blinked you would of missed me....the I CRASHED...and now I am in the lows again for the last 10mnths...aaaahhhh!!!! I am wondering if there really is a medium with this disease. I just really miss the highs but they were no good for me anyway. Hoping this Lithium works for me. Love and Prayers Ramona xoxoxoxoxoxoxxo

yup pretty much what you said originally cabbie