Hey. I am so confused right now, and scared and so sad it hurts so bad. And nobody, nobody, seems to even care. I am brokenhearted, and for so many reasons. But this bipolar thing makes it all so much worse. I can't make friends, and even if the man I love did love me back I don't always feel like I could be with him, because I would never want to see him suffer. I would do anything in the world for him. Nobody ever talks to me except when they want something. Please, I am such a nice person - people have said so - but I can't explain how I can be so happy and energetic and then angry or tired and I am in so, so much pain.
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