I plummeted into a low today, but not before freaking out and crying hysterically. Is there anyone out there who can relate? I start out edgy and irritated, even the slightest mess in the house overwhelms me. Then I start to question my boyfriend if he will leave me or not (he says he won't). Then I cry like crazy and cry out for help. I want to die. I can't stop crying or yelling "No, no, not again". It is awful. My boyfriend doesn't know what to do, so he withdraws which makes me worse. He eventually comes around and hugs me, and I cry for a long time. He gets depressed and sad for me and then the guilt hits. The guilt is horrible. I can't stand when this happens and I can't control it when it does. I am going to call my doc and see if I can see him sooner than my next appointment. Can anyone else relate? Am I the only one who freaks out like this before plummeting? It is so scary.
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