Im phenomenally frustrated right now. I just spent 2 hours in bed with my wife kissing her and touching her and begging in every way but verbally for her attention and got NO response at all. NONE, NADDA, ZIPPO ZILCH, ZERO, ZEDnot even a "go away" or a "not tonight" or anythingnot even a kiss back. This is one of those times when I REALLY hate BP and wish I could make it go away for an hour even. Im being totally selfish of course and only considering my personal needsat least I was until I finally quit and let her sleep and came back into the office to get online. Greatnow I feel like a heal for trying. Maybe Im the one that should be on meds.
Posts You May Be Interested In
i made this account because i hope this reaches someone who can understand. I feel immense shame and guilt over my past behavior while manic. I have ruined relationships with friends and family members, gotten tattoos that i dont want, done things that make me cringe. The weight of the self hatred gets to be too much sometimes. I feel like a burden. Nobody understands. I hate myself today.
Our great friend OlderC could really use some love and support right now... She's hit a rough patchBig squishy hug Kat... I hope that you start to feel better really soon.... xo