Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
every time i saw men in suits (it was a small mountain town so suits were rare) i'd run and try to escape.
i also often start thinking that ppl from my past are after me and they've created fake accounts on DS and are spying on me.
that may be more rational than paranoid, but fuck, i'm nuts, what do i know?
Then it all became ONE after that.
ONE new reality for me to try and grow into.
So much new reality to grasp.
I love having a personal game every inch of the way.It's dark, tragic and euphoric.It's a weird turn-on,this Manic Depression cos it has no mercy.You have to stay in there.
Wouldn't swap it....well..now I wouldn't.
you ARE rock and roll
For a while every time I would see blue light or hear sirens I would panic & try to hide because I KNEW they were after me! Except...I hadn't done ANYTHING illegal, LOL!
Then phone calls, if the caller ID said GOV or anything remotely official sounding I would freak out & think they were coming to take my house, car or something.
The funny thing about paranoia is that later you can look back at it & see how silly it was, but then you are off to a new paranoia, which you're not seeing the funny in it yet ;)
For me, it's just magnified FEAR....
i thought that when i spoke to people, my thoughts would display on my forehead like a ticker tape.
i thought that people would purposely drive by my house to spy on me, and rummage thru my things and replace them with exact replicas so i wouldn't know,s o they could run tests on my real belongings while i was in the shower.
paranoid, no?!
It went just after talking to God