U talking about me? ha ha

I dont know what mine is but feels like paranoia, usually with groups of people, I think they dont like me & are planning stuff or leaving me out. I have got myself in a few messes ie: on my 40th I got no card or anything at work so when my boss came over to ask how i was i said i was very upset that the tossers had forgotten me & i got all stroppy. he then produced a huge card & TWO presents which had loads of thought put into them. I felt a right arse but i cant help it. i think the whole world is out to get me.

yeah i thought the CIA was out to get me because i'd violated the patriot act with some essays i'd written for a small town local paper.

every time i saw men in suits (it was a small mountain town so suits were rare) i'd run and try to escape.

i also often start thinking that ppl from my past are after me and they've created fake accounts on DS and are spying on me.

that may be more rational than paranoid, but fuck, i'm nuts, what do i know?

To me paranoia was the REAL membrane that had to be slit.
Then it all became ONE after that.
ONE new reality for me to try and grow into.
So much new reality to grasp.
I love having a personal game every inch of the way.It's dark, tragic and euphoric.It's a weird turn-on,this Manic Depression cos it has no mercy.You have to stay in there.
Wouldn't swap it....well..now I wouldn't.

Paranoia is Post-Punk to Manic Episode's Birth Of Rock And Roll

pluck

you ARE rock and roll

I do know that already.

Jesus told me

Geesh, paranoia!

For a while every time I would see blue light or hear sirens I would panic & try to hide because I KNEW they were after me! Except...I hadn't done ANYTHING illegal, LOL!

Then phone calls, if the caller ID said GOV or anything remotely official sounding I would freak out & think they were coming to take my house, car or something.

The funny thing about paranoia is that later you can look back at it & see how silly it was, but then you are off to a new paranoia, which you're not seeing the funny in it yet ;)

I'm writing a book.

and Jesus cannot lie...xx

I've always been trusting but recently have had bouts of paranoia. It's gruelling, actually, and I don't like it. It's not me.

For me, it's just magnified FEAR....

i thought little people were tapping my brain while i slept at night to read my thoughts.

i thought that when i spoke to people, my thoughts would display on my forehead like a ticker tape.

i thought that people would purposely drive by my house to spy on me, and rummage thru my things and replace them with exact replicas so i wouldn't know,s o they could run tests on my real belongings while i was in the shower.

paranoid, no?!

I've been superparanoid before, very taxing and scary really. My bp cuz thinks he's being bugged all the time, he's only 2o, it's sad.

Paranoia....I never actually voiced it to anyone.I kept it in and therefore had real amazing enclosed paranoia.
It went just after talking to God